It
“Do you have to make it your whole personality?”
I mean,
Is it that immense discomfort you feel
when you look in the mirror?
Examining yourself under scrutiny
and looking in every angle to try and
find the one where the face looks
the most like the one
you can say is yours?
Is it the way your stomach drops
at empty acceptance?
No boys allowed
(besides you).
I don’t date guys
(but you’re different).
Hanging with the gals
(and you).
Is it knowing
that they see you
but refuse to look at you?
Is it when you scroll on social media
and go to the bookstore
and the library
and watch the tv
and all they talk about is
the seduction of
our ‘daughters’
by this disease of the mind?
Is it feeling unwanted?
My existence seen as a trend,
a pop song, a punchline?
Is it unwanted?
Is it the fact that I keep going regardless?
Is it that I am allowed to want myself?
If so, then I think I will keep making it my whole thing, thanks.